A Life Worth Living

     Even though I have lived my entire life with a chronic disease I have a life worth living.  Growing up I was "the sick girl" or the "girl who can't do anything".  I felt like I was nothing but a girl that was sick and going to die without anyone remembering anything else about me.  I was tubes, pills, doctors, bills. I had a poor prognosis.  I felt like a lab rat.  I was depressed and scared all the time.  I thought about dying all the time.  I felt alone. That is all in the past.

     I am more self confident than ever now.  I am a mother, a wife, a daughter, a sister.  I am a knitter, a scrap-booker, a bowler, a sports fan.  I am strong and stubborn.  I am happy, loving and spontaneous.  I have won trophies and awards.  I am in love and loved.  I am beautiful and amazing.  Everyday I amaze myself even if I never get out of my pj's.  Although I am still sick, I am ALIVE and I have a life worth living.  

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  1. ColleenApril 4, 2012 at 11:05 PM

    You are a feisty person, and I am so glad we've "met" through the PH community! I can only hope one day we meet in person!! We have a lot in common since we know what it's like to live with this crappy disease for a long time. Keep on living your life to the fullest!! Love ya!! (((HUGS)))

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